"I still miss you babe, nd i don't wanna miss........."

Aerosmith really sung that song well..... Really dont kno wat to write, but still, this time heart says, come on god dammed write sumthing.... I'd always missed, da day I ever saw u for the fst time.... Well, missing is good thing, as it keeps the feelings alive inside.... but times r thr, whn it becums a bit painful.... can't do nything abt it, but yeah i finally learn living wid dat pain inside...

these 4:57 mins, dat Aerosmith jst stole from me, I really

"New Love"

"I still miss you babe, nd i don't wanna miss........."

Aerosmith really sung this song very passionately..... Really dont kno wat to write, but still, this time heart says, come on dammed write sumthing.... I'd always missed, da day I ever saw u for the fst time.... Well, missing is good thing, as it keeps the feelings alive inside.... but times r thr, whn it becums a bit painful.... can't do nything abt it, but yeah i finally learn living wid dat pain inside...

These 4:57 mins, Aerosmith jst stole from me, I really have no regrets wid him.... People say Love is essential for Life and forever, I use to wonder if Love ever exist on earth... Is really thr nything like love??? I don't know, neither I want to do ny kind of research on dat.... but yeah I do know, dat whn a new member comes in one's life (like a small tender delicate baby), a New Love is born, nd u do love it, protect it unconditionally....

Yesss, and Parents do it forever without any expectation, with an altrustic favour thr entire life.... everyone knows it very well.... (so not getting into much depth... I continue...)

So, as if soon I thot this New Love entered my life, I had given my best support nd dat unconditional favour.... I dont know what love is, as it is sumthing u feel inside if u r togther.... One the best part is, u still got all of it inside u... but real worst thing is, never got a chance to share it wid dat spl one...

I often come across people saying "give ur love but never expect nything in return...." dats absolutely rubbish.... but, still i'll not comment on dat....

For me, as an unconditional Parent, I always knew how to favour nd nurture this New Love I thought I had in my life... but like all other good-for-nothing, stubborn kids behave, me too got very little hope on em.... nyways, not painful nymore... parents dont regret thr kids...

Like a good parent, I'll do keep on nurturing nd providing dat best possible effort m having inside me, forever....

and as Aerosmith sung............

"I don't wanna close my eyes,

I don't wanna fall asleep,

Cause I'd miss you, BABES,

And I don't wanna miss a thing....."

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welll................

hmmmmm.... yeah m a professional mobile fotographer...

While on way back to my place, I just like the whole scene, actually the sun.... Bhuvan was driving too fast, nd Dimla didnt bothered at all... but nyways, both liked the pic very much...

Sun is so hot inside, but soo cool out side (oyeeee, comparatively)... but, watever... sun do motivates a lot.... and as for moon... haaaaahhhh... I cant stop staring a full moon wid a cool breeze and a few moments of loneliness (wid few thoughts inside that knucklehead)....

Sure will upload a nice moon pic someday...

Finally Back 2 full on Blogging.... YES, M COOL NOW!!!

Finally, m back on track... thank god... after so much lethargic moments and thoughts and topics and hmmmm, life... watever... finally a came up wid this new thought, why dont i write something (weird) dat jst took place in my life....
Well, some people are sooo much over over confident in themselves, I mean, even god cant help from being so miserable... They are just over confident because of there insecurities, I believe dat...

Now talking about this one incident dat just took place this evening, and god, i cant tell how much relieved I am today... life, mind, thoughts, health were so much turbulent past few days... but I must say, u got to find some place, some barf bag, or something like that, to just vomit out that frustation and that instability factor, responsible for such turbulence inside... nd if it is done on such a person, who is living so pathetically miserable over confident life because of all the insecurities of life, m telling you, its not a bad thing at all....

HOW????

First, ofcourse, m getting more stable..... and second, a small help is provided to the person mentioned above, from getting him out of that insecurity....... and this is one of the good deeds in this world... Believe me....

Now, this old dude of mine, so much over-confident of himself.... thinks, he is damn good on every front and actually, is good for nothing... no doubt, many of you (reading this) might have came across such typos... nothing new... actually this is not his fault... thing grew as years spent... the day he must have said such words, dat were responsible for making him such way, if sumbody had thrashed his a$$ off, he might had turned up into a good human... but, sadly, nthing happened dat time...
So, these people grow as time exceeds, actually there insecurities grow... people know him very well, nd even he knows everyone of us.... he thinks that (k een $all0 ne kuch bolna to hai nahi, maine jitni faink ni hai, faink lu...), because, we all are friends...
But for me enough is enough... A person is underestimating you, nd thinks as no one is speaking out, means m right and i gatta speak more now...
As I always knew (and everyone else also) that this dude is wrong... even he knows sumwhr inside dat he is wrong, but cant help now, because that insecurities has turned into a new term called confidence... Lying all da time and pretending to b a super confident genius, people normally tolerate, actually not tolerate, make fun behind his back... Only this thing is responsible and helping for making him bigger and bad...

But today, time was different, ambience was different, mood was different (mine was definitely bad), and ofcourse the topic was different.... (tu aa beta, aaj batata hu papa kon hai)... His thoughts were so impractical, so immature and definitely, if one is not repelling himself against such thoughts, and accepting them as they are being thrown away, he will be definitely labelled as a Fool... and M not one of them, accepting such f**kingly pathetic thoughts...

Finally, as a good friend, I thrashed him badly (not physically... maar jata bechara) verbally, that somewhere he must have realised, m not his piece of cake.. thats good... Actually I wanted him to realise the truth... but time was less... god help him...

True Friend is only he who tells u on ur face that u r wrong... nd people normally ends up saying, marega salla.. humme kya...

As for me, two good things happened, as I told before, I became more stable inside as u do need something whr u can utter the things inside, and secondly, that guy knows, m not listening to his nonsense any more... if he got a little mind, he must think over wat I said, this will def help him.. thats third...

One Last Thing I wanna share "If you got cool inside your head, world is at your knees"... once the head is hot, thats bad for u and a chance for the other to thrash u down....

And as my buddy says "agar tu cool rahe, to duniya ki b**d p**d sakta hai"... thanx buddy, I never knew I was such kind of person... Hey, m not getting any overconfident now...

P.S: abusive language, wrong spelling and incorrect use of vocabulary shudnt b taken seriously.... for god sake, njoy the blog....

and the word is EXPECTATION.....

Finally a got something which updates my blog and as written on the top, the word is expectation.
well, the literary meaning of the word expect is require someone to fulfil an obligation.
I had seen many people forgetting the meaning of this word, and many a times they use this word in an entirely wrong sense.
Many such relationships according to me come to an end just because one of two is unable to FULFIL THE OBLIGATION that is required to keep IT going.

Well this part is known by everyone. But where they are wrong???

The next thing is said by many of them is I DONT EXPECT ANYTHING NOW, and this rule is universally applied to every relation.

Well, I say if there is no expectation in a relationship, then that relation is not meant to exist.

If I am a friend with someone, somewhere I see that person to favour me because he is capable of that. And if the person is not capable, then I’ll definitely be won’t be waiting for his favour.

What is this favour??? Nothing but I’ll say I Expect.
To keep a relation going expectation is needed but where people go wrong, they forget to make a level.

People with broken heart usually say this thing.

Well just one advice for them, think.... why are you in a relation.... because the other person favours you unconditionally, because he expects that you’ll give him more love and warmth if you accepts his favour. And same thing you expects that he’ll favour you.
Say it, if you need a person to favour you...

Well people, come on, expect with the person you are in relationship, but do mind the level.......

Till the next time, take care and keep posting comments........

Get busy Living or get busy Dying

Its quiet a time now, I wrote something in my blog here..... After a week here, the first thing I decided to do is to reach for my blog, and write somethingS dats are ever continuing to cross my mind......

Saw this movie, shawshank redemption.... nd man, wat a movie!!!! after a long time I really enjoyed such a nice movie nd somewhere it touched me inside..... hats off to Andy Dufrene.... fuelled with power packed dialogues, each words is so beautifully narrated, I just like to enjoy it over nd over again.....



As for life, it is just flying like anything.... having that one good thought in ur mind, that makes u fight with urself nd nobody else.... waiting for that 1 thing u dont wanna have, but still somewhere u want it, nd finally u regret y it came to u, nd u do every possible thing to loose it again...... gives u pleasure and pain, da same time....

People say life is to enjoy, but they themselves ruins their life, just to seek that perfect enjoyment..... nd I saw many of them..... countless.....

well I say, accomplishment of pending deeds, gives u perfect reason to enjoy ur life.... nd god, I am enjoying my life like anything.....

and as I once said to this broken lady, "life is beautiful and busy"...... so be busy making it beautiful..... now I complete myself....

till the next time... read it over nd over again..... nd enjoy.....
Chao...

its november 13th...

Its 3 days I celebrated my bday alone in my hostel room with a pack of lays of my fav taste and a couple of phone calls and thinking why the hell these people are congratulating me today... I mean, I know m born, but what had I contributed to these people that they are so happy on this day....

Okay, these are my fnds, relatives, my well wishers nd so nd so nd so.... but, occasionally, we all are somehow dependent on each other, thats y v r here.... but still, nobody said, "thanks for coming to this world, if u vernt here i would've been alone, i would've been nothin blah blah blah"....

U might think m some kind of depressed loser, which I am not, thinking and saying such things on my bday and expressing them in my first post of the blog...... but did u ever had any thoughts in this one, that on each bday instead of being getting elder each year and somehow getting closer to DEATH, wat else u contributed to any one in real sense....

its not m afraid of death, but y actually m here for......
and as i say "EVEN DEATH IS ONCE IN A LIFE TIME EXPERIENCE".... well this is getting -ve for most of ppl outta thr....

I am happy to be in this world, but what had I done for anybody....

I always loved this word 'I'.... it some how, i dont kno how, gives me strength when I know nobody is with me (just to share my feelings), but I is still thr to listen me, love me and to criticize me....

People say 'I' is used by egoistics.... but 'I' say that 'I' is used by people who know how to love and criticize themselves...

finally, i got something from this, as for next bday, iI v'll do celebrate it but not just being on this earth, but for all the accomplishments that I will achieve this entire year.....